Showing posts with label Agape. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Agape. Show all posts

Friday, December 5, 2014

WHAM! You are there.

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The thing about this trip is that no one can tell you exactly where it leads. Google doesn't know. Siri doesn't know. The moment of arrival can't be predicted or plotted.

Traveling this way is disconcerting at first. In a non-linear world everything is sort of vague and non specific. Surprises are everywhere. Times, deadlines and even destinations have little relevance. What matters is the doing.

The Pando reminds me of what we'll find there. The Pando is an ancient clonal colony of quaking Aspen, found in Utah, USA. Estimates of its age start at 80,000 years but reach back to 8 million years old. What is clear is that these trees are connected, but that connection (a single root system) is invisible and sort of a distraction as they are all parts of a single living organism, one of this world's oldest.

We are ONE. We exist as separate looking versions of ourselves, with separate sounding opinions, names, birthplaces and histories. Once we reach awareness, it'll sort of be like reaching Utah. We'll look around and notice that everyone looks exactly the same. If we decide to dig deep, we'll see that not only do we look alike above the ground, but we are ONE organism beneath as well. If we decide to ascend to the skies and look down, we'll again see ONE colony of identical trees. There will be no escaping our ONEness.

With awareness comes simplicity. No longer are the reasons for your feelings complicated. It will not matter who got there first, who tripped who on the way, or who has the most souvenirs. Once you reach awareness, reasons fall away and whats left is the feeling. There is not a single path to Agape because, like the Pando, roots/connections exist in every direction. As part of the ONE, you will throw out your own shoots along the way. This journey cannot be mapped.

The whole point is Agape. Like an invisible root system, this is the binding that forms who we are. It's not like we are separate things, held by an idea. We are one thing. The discovery of that singularity happens and WHAM – you are there. No one can tell you when that will happen. These journeys point to what you'll see along the way; they cannot put into words its magnificence.

So, let everything go and you'll be there. It's that simple and the most difficult trip you'll ever take. You are here now to do this. Your success and your arrival is guaranteed. Expect only love and what you'll find is that you were never alone. I've been growing right beside you the whole time, as has every “other” you have known. We all love you. We all ARE you.

We are the ones we've been waiting for.

This ends our Love Quest for December. We will begin again in January, look for an invite/announcement next week. Also in January keep your eyes out for the “Hundredth Monkey Project”!

Have a blessed holiday and know that in every moment you are love. I love you.

Namaste',

~Sophia

The Road to Awareness/Agape


(3 days of Love notes...)

1.
This is not an ordinary journey. It asks you to frequent places you'd prefer to avoid. The awareness of who you are in every circumstance is not comfortable at first. 

There is only one thing to pack. It is called acceptance. There are at least ten to leave behind:

-denial

-blame

-righteousness

-fault

-finger pointing

-justification

-anger

-vindication

-judgment

-reasons – any

You see, on this trip you'll confront yourself in every disguise. You'll look like lovers, cheaters, liars, bosses, strangers, bullies, friends, parents, siblings, children, people you've trusted and those you’ve hated. Don't be fooled. It is you every time. In each meeting you'll think the circumstances differ and the questions asked of you are many. In truth, there is only one question and it concerns just one being. “Do you love me?”

As you move from place to place and person to person, understand that in every utterance and with every interaction – this same question is before you. As you begin to see the language for what it is, and hear the “soul talk” that is universally understood, you'll comprehend an even greater truth - “you do” (love you). For to love you, is to love me, and I have felt your love. We are One.

There is no shame or blame or fault in love. To love is really the only point. The rest? Drama, window dressing and imaginary monsters and masters under your bed. These are the playthings of your ego self. They are interesting and fun for awhile. They are absorbing; fully formed bridges that move us from place to place. They are not destinations.

Do you love me?” is the question. “I do” is the answer. Now, with an awareness of love – proceed. Which direction would love turn? What would love say? What would love hold onto? What would love do to whomever was loved? Each of these questions is answered within. This journey is entirely self-directed. Your heart knows the way.

Once you accept each version you encounter, the road smooths out, the weather clears and the food tastes better. There is no bitterness left in your mouth and no emotional debt weighing down your footsteps. You are unencumbered.

Acceptance of who you are asks you to first acknowledge your many disguises. No more pretending. The charade is over. Every inch of you is out there and its all okay. Perfection does not follow any blueprint “thought up” with your mind. Perfection is drawn in your heart, and your heart has not been trained. It doesn't stay within the lines or even understand the need for any of them. It simply loves. As you move further along, you'll feel the intelligence of its method.

To your rational mind – this Agape trip is nonsense. There are reasons and deadlines, lies and faults – each of them holding you up. You'll have to let them go in order to proceed. To accept without blame or “but”, every “other” version you've met on the path – this is agape. See me with all of my “faults” and know that I am you. I will stand in your way until you recognize yourself.

Then, once accepted, I'll join you. Together we'll reach the Awareness Field and notice the absence of mirrors. There we'll finally see each other. There, we will know Agape. We'll look into each others eyes and accept ourselves without hesitation. We are the Ones we've been waiting for.

I love you. See you tomorrow.
~Sophia

2.
There are points of focus on our journey that look more like obstacles than mere scenery. When encountered, these hills, valleys and waterways of angst feel insurmountable. Here's a partial list of love's dangerous territory:

-Disappointment Hill

-The Valley of Pain

-Hurt Mountain

-The Lakes of Liars

-Retribution River

-Insult Island

-Mount Cheat

-Controlling Canyon

-The Ocean of Abuse

-The Crying Cliffs

-Disrespect Desert

-Broken Bay

-Heartbreak Cove

-The Lost Falls

-Payback Trail

-Anger Swamp

-The Devil's Cave

-Evil Prairie

-Tundra of the Used

-The Glacier of Tears

We've assigned them with labels and as a result, pack plenty of appropriate and sturdy gear to prepare for each venture out there. This, our attempt at safety and protection, will one day become the bars on our prison.

Your heart is not meant to be protected. In fact, there is no gear available to keep it safe. Your heart is relentless in its push towards love. Regardless of terrain, it will reach always for the silver lining. 

Looking for truth, your heart knows that from each perspective springs a sound reason/explanation. We do what we do because it seems like a good idea at the moment of our doing it.

We are not stupid, soft, easy or hard – we are human. That puts us all on one path. Whether we know it or not, this road to Agape is one we all share. More movies, songs and stories are written about love than any other subject. We are obsessed. We tell stories of the dangerous terrain in an effort to understand. Also to warn each other; “Stay inside!” “You can get hurt out there!”

All of this, the protective gear, the warnings and the stories don't stop the wanting. More than perfection, what we yearn for is love.

The trip feels dangerous, painful and hard. At the end of each effort a decision must be made – either do it again or put on more gear.

There is a way to move forward without gear or fear. It comes from the deepest part of your heart. It is not a technique or a specific route. The challenging terrain will always be out there. It is a decision.

This is not a decision about anyone or anything but you. It is the only decision you are qualified to make. It must be made every day. You can speak the decision once. Be very specific. Then for every day and/or moment after, that it needs to be restated, declare: 
I invoke my love choice now.”

What is this choice? It goes like this:
Under every circumstance, with every being, within each relationship and during all encounters and journeys – I love myself without condition, judgment or exception. And so it is.”

No obstacle, person, place or event can alter this declaration. It is a now statement. It is an Agape Announcement. It is unconditional love by Intention.

Once you engage Agape as an everyday part of your life, you can stop worrying about being prepared, being protected or “being” anything at all. You are free to just be. You see, plans, rules, specific responses, outfits or equipment are cages. Agape doesn't thrive in or care about cages or any of that. Agape will ignore them all.

It's not perhaps what we imagined. It doesn't always feel good and it's not always easy. But it's always free. Freedom is a decision to honor the light that you are, regardless of circumstance. Agape happens when you shine that light indiscriminately on the world. You see, unprotected and unencumbered, your heart beats love to everyone it reaches. Just allow it to. Invoke your love choice and watch us all light up.

You are the One you've been waiting for.
See you tomorrow.
~Sophia
3.
So, this Agape trip is something new. It is not so much a love story as it is a family reunion. What we are attempting is complete integration – Eternal You with ego you.

Many parts of the journey have gotten a bad rap. There is the “ego”. There are the “bad relationships”. There are a host of conspiracy theories, all plotting to make your life miserable.

As you move further into the Awareness Field, you notice something – none of these people, plots or parts of you seem to be hanging back. We are all coming along. It's Ohana in action - "Ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind.... or forgotten."

This is not the oneness that we've dreamed of, it's the oneness we've created. Everyone included – regardless of past or current attitudes or actions.

Well, shoot. What now? Now its time to dig deep into that pocket of acceptance and pull out understanding. There can be no judgment in Unity. No parts of us are wrong or need to make amends. All that was done, is. All that is, was done. We are parts of a single unit, moving in a circle. We have been each other and we've been here before. We may not have liked it much then either. Yet we are here, together again, reaching for absolute truth.

Absolute truth is what your heart knows. Each and every one of you have felt it. Perhaps while making love, holding your child, hugging another or laughing til you cried. It's the indescribable glue that binds us to each other.

This super glue is invisible. It cannot be measured. It must be lived and breathed and felt and exhaled. We are learning of the real power of our heart only in this last decade. It has a unifying function and seems to be the organizer of the human being. There is a book I'm reading now that talks about this - “The Heart's Code” by Paul Pearsall. It validates the intelligence and memory that is held in our heart. 

Words aren't adequate when Oneness and Agape are the subjects. Agape is a knowing. It is an understanding of everyone else simply because you are everyone else. It cannot be discovered but must be allowed. Agape is Unity experienced viscerally. It is Walking Oneness.

You cannot find Agape because its never been lost. Not really. What you can do is reveal it. You do that by opening your heart to you. Then to me and to every enemy, friend and “other” you encounter. You do that by opening your heart, period.

It will come to a choice and it'll be some version of this: “You can be right or you can be love. Choose now.”

Invoke the love choice. You are worth every snippet of love available and then some. You are priceless and perfect and oh so much more than “right”. You the the One. The One you've been waiting for. Welcome home.

See you tomorrow.
~Sophia

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

5 Steps to Agape ~ Love Quest ~ Day 2

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Let's talk about who you are, for you are so much more than you know. This person, the one looking at you from the bathroom mirror this morning is akin to a god. This is not said lightly or in jest. This is truth. The Source of life that propels you forward each day is the energy of creation itself. The definition of “soul” is your local connection to that energy. This energy doesn't diminish as it localizes, it becomes a specific point of focus. As such, it can experience its surroundings at a local level. You are the face of that local level.

We are speaking about a specific you – but there are many. As a god, you enjoy a multitude of “lives and locales” yourself. These are the places of your dreams and “past” lives, your favorite things and obsessions. Do you see now the definition of infinity? There is no end to you.

Yet “you” are focused here now; earth, 2014. You are looking for love, some contentment, perhaps a purpose. And this is no small matter. All that you feel in this now is felt in every other, there is no separation – it's all you. Nothing is insignificant.

I've just had a demonstration of this physically. I've had a head injury and was given a narcotic for it. The reaction was immediate. The drug triggered every weakened point in my body and with one dose I was incapacitated with inflammation and illness everywhere. A gradual withdrawal, homeopathic remedies and a healer all have just about restored things to “normal”. I've felt first hand how each part of this body is connected to the other – we are always treating the whole.

Considering Agape then, and the unity of ourselves – it is not possible that hate or dislike of any part does not impact the other parts. We are One – physically, figuratively and completely. In order to experience love in every moment you'll have to feel it for all parts of you. The beauty of how it works is that you don't need to worry about how to do this anywhere but right here or anytime but right now; the connection takes care of everything else.

First, realize your Mastery. For without it, you wouldn't be here. Only Masters incarnate on earth. You have nothing to do to earn that title; it's yours. It is time to own it. It is shared by everyone you know.

Second, now that you know one of your titles, “Master”, look up to yourself. You've come through so very much to get here. Your particular gift and expertise was necessary now – during this time of awakening. Honor the gifts you bring to the table. You chose to offer them and were chosen because of them.

If you aren't clear on what those gifts are, the third thing to do is get clarity. Those gifts you came to share are the things you just can't stop doing, thinking about or researching. While immersed in them, you think of nothing else. You know “happy” then. They may not be what's putting food on your table right now, yet that doesn't matter. The joy and fulfillment they bring has no price tag.

The fourth step. With clarity and acceptance of your gifts – don't stop doing them. Increase the time and effort you put there in any amount you can. Come out of the closet with who you are. We are waiting to see you.

Now the fifth step is not a thing to do but a thing to feel. Feel the love that wells up inside while you do your thing. Honor the “rightness” you experience, the comfort with your craft, the ability and knowing that seems to spring from nowhere. Not imagined, these gifts you are discovering are from parts of you not here; but you just the same. They show up when you give permission, welcome them with love, imbue them with excitement and acknowledge them by using them. This is why you came!

You are Masters, and with acceptance of this truth you allow Agape to seep in. What's not to love? You are a brilliant bit of eternal wisdom; all wrapped up in this quirky, beautiful character called you.

Once you “get” what's magical, special and absolutely fantastic about you – you'll see love everywhere! That is Agape. Absolute acceptance of yourself. Allow it. Fearlessly find your favorite obsession and play there as much as you can. Agape is sure to emerge. You'll see.

You are the One you've been waiting for.

See you tomorrow.
~Sophia
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--- I am loving Switchfoot this week... You Tube link here.


Monday, October 13, 2014

So What is Agape? Join the Quest, Day 1



This Quest, in the strictest definition, is not really a Quest at all. For a “Quest” is defined as “a search or pursuit in order to find or obtain something”. You don't have to “find” agape as much as allow it to be seen. You don't need to “obtain” agape either – it is not “obtainable”.

Agape is the physical manifestation of truth. Agape is Source personified. Agape resides in the deepest, truest part of you. It is your beginning. It is something you already have, and therefore not “gettable”.

So, we are technically on a Quest for something we own; something we are. Maybe what's going on here is merely semantics. Perhaps we need a re-definition of Agape.

Agape feels like acceptance. It looks like peace. It is a recognition of your heart. Agape is comforting, inclusive and allowing. It gives permission. Agape unconditionally adores. Agape loves every nook and cranny of you.

Agape sees a mountain ahead and envisions only the wild trip downhill; feeling joy and anticipation. Agape notices the absence of a person or thing and wishes him, her or it a fond farewell; knowing that energy of any kind is not ever “gone” on this eternal ride. Then, Agape wonders who or what will show up next to fill the void. Life is like that always.

Agape greets you with a smile every time. There is no circumstance that will change Agape's joy at seeing you again. Harsh words, time or distance do not alter Agape. It is a force, and as such, unshakable.

We are so very much human. Our days are spent dealing with how we feel and look, what we “have to do”, who we are with and what they said or might say. Beneath all of that, we are the force of Agape – albeit unrecognized.

Agape doesn't take away the argument you just had or the hurt you may feel – it puts it in perspective. We are sourced from love, and clothed in ego.

For this coming week/Quest, we'll look at how to recognize Agape. It is everywhere. We've spent our lifetime looking at everything else, as if it was all that mattered. Billboards, apps and social media shout constantly. “Do you have this disease?” “Is he cheating on you?” “Do you want the perfect body?” “Are you happy/angry/active/beautiful enough?”

Your ego self can answer these questions yet none of these will ultimately satisfy you. The answers will not bring happiness, satisfaction or fulfillment that is lasting. Your ego self is not offended by these assumptions about you – but your sovereign self is. You are so much more than you know. Your sovereign self knows the core of you; recognizing that therein dwells all things of relevance.

We are on this Quest to draw out our Sovereign Self. He/she is found in the recognition of Agape in every facet of life. There is a great deal of NOISE we'll have to ignore to hear him or her. Yet she is there and he is waiting with open arms and giant grins. It is you.

You are the One you've been waiting for.
See you tomorrow.




Friday, April 25, 2014

The Fierce Power of Agape

Picture You reside in a field of love.  Your very base programming begins there.  It is the spark of each other that joins you.  Isolated, you may appreciate nature and love life, yet it is in human contact that you embody the fierce power of agape. For when you love another, it is not their attributes that are calling to your soul, but a reminder of your own.

When you look at each other and are deeply moved, it is because at a fundamental level you understand that there you behold the sacred.  It is you that has stirred your own soul.

What this moment is about is a shedding of our skin of self-loathing.  What is not perfection is not true.  The veil that we speak of is not draped between ourselves and others - but hanging, invisibly, as a barrier to the truth.  It is you on the other side of that veil - gloriously abundant and here now on purpose.  Your vessel will push waves of light cascading over all of creation, creating tsunamis of love.

For love is a force.  Love is here because you are here.  It arrives unbidden whenever you do.  It takes a being of unimaginable power to embody divinity.  It takes you.

We are the one you've been waiting for.


( Repost from August 2012)
~Sophia 


Monday, March 24, 2014

And what about love.

For three years there’s been Quests for Agape.  Searching, losing and finding deeper and still deeper levels of what we call love.  Still now, surrounded in answers, the question remains.  How do I love?  How do I wake up, go to bed, day after day love?

I can talk about what it means to love.  It does not mean the things you imagine.  It does not mean always getting your way or having someone cooperate and do things for you; even do things with you.

It means honor the ground they walk on.  Be a positive force for them.  It means gently absorb them as if they were your final breath.  Not gasping and clawing for them but breathe them in quietly for the gift that they are.

Love does not hurt and does not have an opinion.  Do you know a relationship that does not include an opinion?  If you do not, it is not because you do not love, you do.  The thing you do not do is unconditionally love.  The one you do not unconditionally love is you.

Regardless of question asked or reason given, when you speak about loving another it is always an illusion.  For “other” does not exist, all is One.  If you understood that, all questions would cease.

“Other” is a reflection.  Relationships are played out versions of self love.  For you are creator gods.  You imagine there is a way for some “other” to hurt you.  Your imaginings cause you real pain.  You came here to help each other.  To teach each other.  About love. 

All love is self love.  All questions are questions about you.  It is always you. So turn it around.  Everyone is right.  You will have to see with new eyes.

What do you want?  What do you intend?  It is your intentions that create your life.  Sometimes, you will have to let go to get what you want.  You do not understand love and still imagine it requires some “other’s” response to you before it can be felt.  While it is true that the physical expression of love requires a partner – it is untrue that love does.

To love is to give to the world all that you are.  Holding back or having an opinion is not included in the expression of love – but only evidence of fear.

You can hold in your heart a desire for love, for its true expression.  You can let go of judgment, expectation and opinion for none of that is love.  You are lonely not because the “other” doesn’t give you want you want, but because you don’t.

You do not need the “other” to be a certain way in order for you to be happy.  The need is self-imposed.  Allow yourself to be happy.  Allow yourself to be loved. 

Make no mistake.  You are working out self love in every relationship.  There is something honest about being who you are everywhere you go.  It is up to you.

You have truth.  The answer you will give yourself. 

You are the One you’ve been waiting for.




Friday, February 14, 2014

Love Quest : Day 7 - "Singles Awareness Day"


Picture We’ve gotten to the end of this Quest and the beginning of the rest of your days.  How you feel about yourself in them will, in no small way, determine how much love you experience as a tangible force.

There are places you’ll go that are brimming with love.  You may meet someone and “fall” in love, have a child and for a time be immersed in the pure energy of newborn love or begin a project you are passionate about and find yourself swimming in the juices of creative love.  Each of these situations is temporary.  You’ll move through them and wake up one day on the other side, with only you to look forward to.  Then what?

It’ll be important then to pull out all the stops you’ve typically put on self-love and allow it to continue to flow unrestricted.  We talked about them this week, the dark stuff and the “when I am this” stuff.  These reasons you carry in your head.  The ones preventing Agape cannot reach your heart.

You can try to put them there, to tell yourself how unworthy you are or how (fill in the blank) you are, but your heart will have none of it.  Your heart cannot lie and it cannot be fooled.  The reason you feel so bad whenever you are judging either yourself or a feeling of love you have for another, is because there is a lie in what your head is telling you, and your heart knows it.  Love can’t lie.  It only knows how to love.

This week we pulled out all the ugly and loved anyway.  If it didn’t feel good it’s because your head is still trying to run the show and tell your heart what to feel.  It won’t work; you cannot change your heart.  It only knows love.

Allow yourself to be loved.  You’ve opened the door to Agape, now let it in.  Stand there, warts and all, and demand full acceptance.  This may feel like a radical act.  It’s the only one you have left.  The dirty laundry is hanging on the clothes line in full view.  The neighbors have all seen it.  Nothing is hidden.  Keep standing.

What you will discover is parts of you which you’ve been unaware of.  You see you can’t cover just the “bad” and “unacceptable” parts without also hiding the rest.  You are full out now and available for complete emergence into your life.  There is much more to you than you know.  Let it come out.

As you feel safe, as the judgment leaves, there will be room left for love.  You will start to feel okay not just momentarily, but in all of your moments.  That okay feeling, if allowed to grow without inhibition, will one day turn into full out adoration. 

This is the secret very young humans have.  What’s pumping through their veins is only love.  Their heads have not yet tried to convince them they are wrong. That joy and freedom in their play and the exuberance in their eyes is what lies beneath the cover of judgment and self loathing you carry.  Today, leave the cover off and watch yourself rise.  You are enough, and all that you “need” to “find” true love.

My son calls today “Singles Awareness Day”; a perfect day to complete our Quest.  It’s not someone else you are looking for anyway.  It’s you.  There are no conditions that make you unlovable, no parts of you unworthy.  The treasure revealed when you toss off self hatred is one you have never seen.  It has been hidden so well, even you were blind to its brilliance.

Go ahead, take a peak.  Imagine today is your last chance to win the Joy Prize for the rest of your days.  Only one more thing to do and it’s all yours.  It’s so close you can almost see it.  All you have to do is let go.  Whatever “reason” you have, and you know them all cold, must be left behind.  The only thing capable of accepting Agape is already yours.

Your heart feels Agape.  It’s been telling you for years.  With every good feeling you’ve ever had about someone or something, no matter who or what, its beating self-love.  None of this was ever wrong.

So leave your head out of it.  It will try to convince you otherwise.  There is nothing wrong with you and as you accept all your parts, the rest of you will join the party.  You cannot partially love or put conditions on Agape. It’s either full acceptance or some degree of discomfort – you’ll have to choose.

Whether “single” or one part of a “couple”, you are alone in this.  When all is said and done, it comes down to one thing.  The self-acceptance you allow is equivalent to the love you feel, regardless of its “source”.  It starts and ends with you.  The rest of us?  We are just some other fun parts, the ride is yours alone.

You are the one you’ve been waiting for.  Thank you for sharing your journey with me.  It’s been an honor.

~Sophia

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                                    Letter for you on your first day here.





Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Love Quest : Day 5 - What you have to lose





Yes, you’ll have to lose something.  This thing you’ve got a death grip on is yours alone.  We can’t see or imagine it and you’ve never told a soul.  So sure are you that it’s all you need to set things right, that you carry its image with you always.

It’s not a photograph.  No, this is not a real life image.  This is your IF image.  IF I did this, IF I looked like this, IF I were this, IF I achieved this, IF I had this – then I’d love me.  Then you’d love me.  Then the world would love me. Enough.

Your IF image has been carefully crafted.  It’s perfect down to the last detail.  You’ve thought of everything.  This way, you’ll know when you arrive.  Oh, what a glorious day that’ll be!

You’ll pull out your IF image and compare it to the reflection in the mirror and smile, deeply satisfied.  You’ll fall absolutely in love with yourself.  No more questions, no hesitation, you are now worthy of love.  And won’t the world come running to you then? You’ll be adored, accepted and undeniably ecstatic.

It doesn’t matter how long it takes you to reach your IF image – it’ll be worth the wait.  You tell yourself this with each self criticism and dark thought.  No worries – someday this will all be over.  It’ll be perfect then, I’ll be perfect then.

Except that it won’t be, and you already are.  It’s time to lose the excuse.  This is life and you are creating it as you move along – that means each second holds the potential for brilliance or disaster.  This never stops until you do.

You’ve been hanging onto a picture that’s not real; using it as an excuse to dislike yourself.  Do you understand how this works?  The self hatred that you feel will not change with more attention, money, fitness or success from the world outside.  It’ll just be hidden more deeply.

Don’t stop desiring these things; desire fuels creation.  Just stop loading up your manifestations with the weight of Agape.  Agape is free and weightless and available today. 

What you’ll have to give up is your IF image.  It’ll be scary but it’s the only way.  Love yourself anyway.  Right now.

What you have to lose is the burden of self defined perfection.  It doesn’t matter if you think your mother or your lover or your god will reject you once they discover the truth – it matters that you don’t reject you.  Chances are good all of them suspect the truth anyway.  All that you’ll be losing is the necessity to pretend.  Let go of this ideal IF image.  Love yourself right now. 

A dear love of mine, Carmella, used to say “god doesn’t make junk” and “what you haven’t got, you don’t need”.  She was right. Celebrate who you are today!  There is nothing to lose worth saving, and a feast of Agape to be had.

You are the one you’ve been waiting for.
See you tomorrow.

                                        DarkSide