Thursday, December 4, 2014
The Road to Awareness/Agape
(3 days of Love notes...)
This is not an ordinary journey. It asks you to frequent places you'd prefer to avoid. The awareness of who you are in every circumstance is not comfortable at first.
There is only one thing to pack. It is called acceptance. There are at least ten to leave behind:
-reasons – any
You see, on this trip you'll confront yourself in every disguise. You'll look like lovers, cheaters, liars, bosses, strangers, bullies, friends, parents, siblings, children, people you've trusted and those you’ve hated. Don't be fooled. It is you every time. In each meeting you'll think the circumstances differ and the questions asked of you are many. In truth, there is only one question and it concerns just one being. “Do you love me?”
As you move from place to place and person to person, understand that in every utterance and with every interaction – this same question is before you. As you begin to see the language for what it is, and hear the “soul talk” that is universally understood, you'll comprehend an even greater truth - “you do” (love you). For to love you, is to love me, and I have felt your love. We are One.
There is no shame or blame or fault in love. To love is really the only point. The rest? Drama, window dressing and imaginary monsters and masters under your bed. These are the playthings of your ego self. They are interesting and fun for awhile. They are absorbing; fully formed bridges that move us from place to place. They are not destinations.
“Do you love me?” is the question. “I do” is the answer. Now, with an awareness of love – proceed. Which direction would love turn? What would love say? What would love hold onto? What would love do to whomever was loved? Each of these questions is answered within. This journey is entirely self-directed. Your heart knows the way.
Once you accept each version you encounter, the road smooths out, the weather clears and the food tastes better. There is no bitterness left in your mouth and no emotional debt weighing down your footsteps. You are unencumbered.
Acceptance of who you are asks you to first acknowledge your many disguises. No more pretending. The charade is over. Every inch of you is out there and its all okay. Perfection does not follow any blueprint “thought up” with your mind. Perfection is drawn in your heart, and your heart has not been trained. It doesn't stay within the lines or even understand the need for any of them. It simply loves. As you move further along, you'll feel the intelligence of its method.
To your rational mind – this Agape trip is nonsense. There are reasons and deadlines, lies and faults – each of them holding you up. You'll have to let them go in order to proceed. To accept without blame or “but”, every “other” version you've met on the path – this is agape. See me with all of my “faults” and know that I am you. I will stand in your way until you recognize yourself.
Then, once accepted, I'll join you. Together we'll reach the Awareness Field and notice the absence of mirrors. There we'll finally see each other. There, we will know Agape. We'll look into each others eyes and accept ourselves without hesitation. We are the Ones we've been waiting for.
I love you. See you tomorrow.
There are points of focus on our journey that look more like obstacles than mere scenery. When encountered, these hills, valleys and waterways of angst feel insurmountable. Here's a partial list of love's dangerous territory:
-The Valley of Pain
-The Lakes of Liars
-The Ocean of Abuse
-The Crying Cliffs
-The Lost Falls
-The Devil's Cave
-Tundra of the Used
-The Glacier of Tears
We've assigned them with labels and as a result, pack plenty of appropriate and sturdy gear to prepare for each venture out there. This, our attempt at safety and protection, will one day become the bars on our prison.
Your heart is not meant to be protected. In fact, there is no gear available to keep it safe. Your heart is relentless in its push towards love. Regardless of terrain, it will reach always for the silver lining.
Looking for truth, your heart knows that from each perspective springs a sound reason/explanation. We do what we do because it seems like a good idea at the moment of our doing it.
We are not stupid, soft, easy or hard – we are human. That puts us all on one path. Whether we know it or not, this road to Agape is one we all share. More movies, songs and stories are written about love than any other subject. We are obsessed. We tell stories of the dangerous terrain in an effort to understand. Also to warn each other; “Stay inside!” “You can get hurt out there!”
All of this, the protective gear, the warnings and the stories don't stop the wanting. More than perfection, what we yearn for is love.
The trip feels dangerous, painful and hard. At the end of each effort a decision must be made – either do it again or put on more gear.
There is a way to move forward without gear or fear. It comes from the deepest part of your heart. It is not a technique or a specific route. The challenging terrain will always be out there. It is a decision.
This is not a decision about anyone or anything but you. It is the only decision you are qualified to make. It must be made every day. You can speak the decision once. Be very specific. Then for every day and/or moment after, that it needs to be restated, declare:
“I invoke my love choice now.”
What is this choice? It goes like this:
“Under every circumstance, with every being, within each relationship and during all encounters and journeys – I love myself without condition, judgment or exception. And so it is.”
No obstacle, person, place or event can alter this declaration. It is a now statement. It is an Agape Announcement. It is unconditional love by Intention.
Once you engage Agape as an everyday part of your life, you can stop worrying about being prepared, being protected or “being” anything at all. You are free to just be. You see, plans, rules, specific responses, outfits or equipment are cages. Agape doesn't thrive in or care about cages or any of that. Agape will ignore them all.
It's not perhaps what we imagined. It doesn't always feel good and it's not always easy. But it's always free. Freedom is a decision to honor the light that you are, regardless of circumstance. Agape happens when you shine that light indiscriminately on the world. You see, unprotected and unencumbered, your heart beats love to everyone it reaches. Just allow it to. Invoke your love choice and watch us all light up.
You are the One you've been waiting for.
See you tomorrow.
So, this Agape trip is something new. It is not so much a love story as it is a family reunion. What we are attempting is complete integration – Eternal You with ego you.
Many parts of the journey have gotten a bad rap. There is the “ego”. There are the “bad relationships”. There are a host of conspiracy theories, all plotting to make your life miserable.
As you move further into the Awareness Field, you notice something – none of these people, plots or parts of you seem to be hanging back. We are all coming along. It's Ohana in action - "Ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind.... or forgotten."
This is not the oneness that we've dreamed of, it's the oneness we've created. Everyone included – regardless of past or current attitudes or actions.
Well, shoot. What now? Now its time to dig deep into that pocket of acceptance and pull out understanding. There can be no judgment in Unity. No parts of us are wrong or need to make amends. All that was done, is. All that is, was done. We are parts of a single unit, moving in a circle. We have been each other and we've been here before. We may not have liked it much then either. Yet we are here, together again, reaching for absolute truth.
Absolute truth is what your heart knows. Each and every one of you have felt it. Perhaps while making love, holding your child, hugging another or laughing til you cried. It's the indescribable glue that binds us to each other.
This super glue is invisible. It cannot be measured. It must be lived and breathed and felt and exhaled. We are learning of the real power of our heart only in this last decade. It has a unifying function and seems to be the organizer of the human being. There is a book I'm reading now that talks about this - “The Heart's Code” by Paul Pearsall. It validates the intelligence and memory that is held in our heart.
Words aren't adequate when Oneness and Agape are the subjects. Agape is a knowing. It is an understanding of everyone else simply because you are everyone else. It cannot be discovered but must be allowed. Agape is Unity experienced viscerally. It is Walking Oneness.
You cannot find Agape because its never been lost. Not really. What you can do is reveal it. You do that by opening your heart to you. Then to me and to every enemy, friend and “other” you encounter. You do that by opening your heart, period.
It will come to a choice and it'll be some version of this: “You can be right or you can be love. Choose now.”
Invoke the love choice. You are worth every snippet of love available and then some. You are priceless and perfect and oh so much more than “right”. You the the One. The One you've been waiting for. Welcome home.
See you tomorrow.