Monday, December 22, 2014

Facing Ghosts of Christmas Past...



Facing Ghosts of Christmas Past...
by American Kabuki

Its been a while since I have written an article for my blog. Its not that I haven't written many  as I worked through many weeks of emotions, but I kept asking myself the same question, "what do you wish to create?"  I've gone through article after article and trashed them all.  It wasn't the energy I wish to put out into the world.  And it certainly wouldn't change the world for the better. But by expressing it in writing, and then trashing it did serve as a way to quantify what was bothering me and the act of trashing it into the Mac waste bin an act of letting it go.  There was value in that even if it didn't have an external audience. 

I have no control on what others do.  I don't much like the recent drama. Heather has taken it in stride and much more positively than I have. I do have control over what I do and what energy I put into the world as my creation.  And pure love is the only valid measure of how well I succeed in doing that.

But recent events it did serve a useful purpose for me.  A number of experiences of my journey through life came up for resurfacing that I had thought were long gone and forgotten. I have a low tolerance for betrayal. I do not like friends turning on friends, and calling it courage and moral fortitude. Admittedly that is my perception, and it assumes Heather looks at it that way when in truth she does not.  She sees them all only as pure love.  Even if they do not see her that way at this moment.

There were some old experiences from the past I had to let go that were being shown to me again by similar circumstances in recent weeks.  And they are probably emotions that contributed to my illness in 2008.   I left the whole church thing behind in 2009.  But apparently parts of the experience lingered.

But as I looked at all that transpired, I see many parallels to a prior experience during the 1990s when I was engaged in movement to reform a religion.   And that experience was every bit as intense as this one is.  Nothing does separation quite as well as religion.  Good boot camp in surviving it.  I witnessed loyalties veer right and left of the religious spectrum as people came to see truth, embrace it, and in some cases turn around and run away from it and raise a figurative cross of denial in the face of truth, as if truth were a vampire of darkness there to suck out the life blood of their blind faith and preconceptions from the marrow of their bones.  Cognitive dissonance of multiple conflicting beliefs will generate some really bizarre turns of behavior.

GW Hardin helped me a lot during the 1990s. He helped me recognize the value in Oneness consciousness, and how dualistic my thinking of good vs evil really was.  What part of a human is good and what part is evil? How do you kill the bad part and leave the good part? Do you kill it or shame it away? Has that ever worked?  If they are the creator in flesh, and you are too, where is your standing or mine to judge?

Abraham Hicks - 2014/11/15 - San Antonio TX




Arcturian Message: The Stadium


Saturday, December 20, 2014
Looking Back to Move Forward -- A 10 Year Journey
12-21-14

As we come into the final days of the year 2014, I realize that I have written a Newsletter almost every month since 11-24-03. Feeling nostalgic I decided to find a representative writing for each year, preferable on a month close to the end of the year. 

Today, I begin the walk down memory lane toward January 1, 2015. 


I send many thanks and unconditional love to my many wonderful friends who walk this lane with me.
Arcturian Message - THE STADIUM
as channeled by Suzanne Lie Ph.D. 
2003

In moments in which you are bound by time and space, you are a point of focus that is the perspective of one of the many aspects that is your SELF. Lets begin with the perspective of your Grounding Point sitting at the top of the stadium as you look down on the infamous 3D Game.

You can feel the illumination of the immense stadium lights just over your head. These lights are your compassionate, beyond-human Self. From the perspective of your Grounding Point, these lights still seem “above” you.

If you were to remember being One, or perhaps being all of the lights, you, too, would become beyond human. You would be Light; in fact, you would become Lightbody. Just as you are now Soul inside and human outside, when you become the “lights” you will be Soul outside and human inside. The “I” that once was “ME” will become the “WE,” as your Lightbody no longer lives with the illusion of separation. Hence, your “I” would be “WE.”

You now feel the yearning to become the lights and an inner tug to be aware of your humanness as a part of your SELF rather than our SELF as a part of your humanness. But, if you did become the lights, would you return to the stadium? Could you enjoy the game that you are all so busily cheering for? There are two teams down there, the BAD team in the dark uniforms and the GOOD team in the light uniforms.

You understand that the teams wear uniforms so that the audience can tell the difference between the teams. They also wear uniforms so that each team member can tell who is on “their” team and who is on the “other” team.

Otherwise, a “good” guy might assist a “bad” guy or a “bad’ guy might assist a “good” guy. What if they all had the same uniform—the human uniform? Then it would be very difficult to keep track of the game. How could the audience know who was winning and who was losing?

The game would be just a bunch of humans running around and interacting with each other. There would be no drama, no winner and no loser. But from the top of the “stadium,” it is difficult to differentiate the uniforms.

The light uniforms have become so soiled from rolling in the dirt that they are now as dark as the dark uniforms. Some of the audience, those sitting at the base of the stadium, can still distinguish between the light and dark, but most of “them,” who are actually fragments of your complete SELF, can no longer tell the difference; nor do “they” care.

You are bored with watching the game of good and bad. You do not care who wins, because you know that you are ALL on the same team. The constant conflict has become tedious to you, and you are now far more curious about the lights above you.

As you look around the stadium, you see that more and more of you are tiring of the game and have turned your attention up, towards the lights. How would it feel to BE the lights?

More and more of you look up into the lights, whereas only a few are still watching the game. Why, even some of the team members have stopped their eternal competition to look into the lights!

As more of you look up into the lights, rather than down onto what the lights are illuminating, the members of the audience blur into one audience. Even the members of the two opposing teams blur into “the players.”

Many of them are also fed up with the game and climb up into the audience, so that they can better see the lights. The lights are living magnets. They embrace all of you with their Essence, which is the feeling of FREEDOM.

The lights whisper into your Essence, “Wait until everyone is ready to see us. Then we have a surprise for you beyond your imagination!”

You don’t want to wait, but yet you know that you will. You will wait until every fragment of your SELF is ready to release the game. You will use the force of your “waiting” to build an energy field that even your most “lost self” cannot ignore.

You will then allow the impetus of this field to build until, not only the entire audience becomes the light, but also the stadium, the parking lot, the earth under the parking lot, in fact—all of it—all the EARTH, all the planet, shall BECOME THE LIGHT.

Then, and only then, will the 3D game be over!


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